2021-2023 was weird to say the least.
Main points: I quit a very big job and opened up a lingerie store in my town. We finally got married. All creative work (films, writing, photography) came to a screeching halt. I had a baby. I closed the store. For the last 10 months I’ve slowly been cutting social media out of my life.
That last part. Woof. Trying to wrap my mind around what creating was going to look like again WITHOUT utilizing social media was difficult. I’ve been wanting to do this for quite some time, but having a baby made it feel… like an addiction that desperately needed to be beat. Instagram, Facebook didn’t bring me joy like they once did. Even saying that feels crazy. These things that aren’t tangible or real.. had such a hold on me for a long time. I LOVED sharing my work, photos, writing, films.. it felt amazing. I think the introduction of stories and reels is what inevitably killed it for me in retrospect. Instead of going out and working on my own stuff due to extreme burnout I was just doom scroll consuming, feeling like “what even is the point for me anymore” so little by little I’ve been chipping away at it. At letting go, figuring out what I was going to do to share my work in a way that felt fulfilling. I’m still working on that, but renewing the DRCP website and getting everything updated was a huge start.
Everything slowed down for me a lot when I had Allen. It had to. I’m still not 100% down with sitting in stillness, but I’m learning.
I’m less than 6k words away from my goal on a book I’m working on. I feel a lot more at peace in general.
In March I got to reconnect with SO many people who I loved working with in the past. And want to work with again. I’m hoping to work in some shoots the next few weeks.
I want to do films again BADLY. But have to figure out how I can do them in my current circumstances.
Anyways, this isn’t completely coherent or well written. But I just wanted to get it out there for myself. The first step back in the direction I want to go.
I have some projects I’ll be sharing here that I did in 2022-23 that I never did anything with. And I’ll be posting updates on my book via this blog as well.
This was weird, and clunky. But I’m happy to be back in some form.
Cheers,
December